It's The Choices That We Choose

drunken evenings

2005-03-24 - 1:04 p.m.

this is the first time in days i have been able to add an entry. that is freaking annoying. maybe i should switch to some other diary. you cant read my old entries anyway anymore... grr.

enough with that. last night was waaay annoying.

so teddy was over last night to use my shower, because hers doesnt work at her house this week.

mike gets to my house around 2am or something. So probably wakes teddy up, but she knew he was coming. maybe rude of me, but i wanted him to come over so less risk of him driving drunk for long. because he was at a bar last night for one of his asian friends 21st birthday.

so he gets here, with food from santanas and he is drunk. more drunk than i have ever seen him. im waaaaaaaay pissed because he drove. so im yelling at him about it (well raised voice in whisper mode) because thats fucked up. he knows i would pick him up anytime if he was too drunk to drive. plus, how shitty were his friends who let him drive home like that. he was drunk.

so i said some bad things to him, he was mad at me for being mad at him. although he kept saying sorry and that he loves me, continuously, but i told him if he loved me he wouldnt have drivem.. etc.

and then he leaves, and he is in the bathroom for a long time. turns out, he was puking. so thats pretty drunk right? right.

then he comes back to bed, and grabs my trash can and starts puking in that for an hour or less. it was pretty gross. and i was pissed, so this was a bad situation.

i figured that his puking was probably good retaliation for what he did. and i thought really hard about it. im not happy about it at all.

but he felt like complete shit for it in the morning. he couldnt stop saying sorry and he couldnt even look at me for 30 mins because he felt so bad about it. i dont really forgive him, but im willing to put it past him, if he never does this again.

i made him promise me that he would call me to pick him up if it was ever this bad again. i seriously dont care. i would rather wake up at ass in the morning than him die in a car wreck.

i skipped my first class today, mostly cuz my 2nd one was canceled and i wanted some sleep.

i ate breakfast with mike. ohh yea that was before us trying to search for his car this morning. he was so drunk last night he forgot where he parked. we looked for like 15 mins trying to find his RENTAL car.

he is basically on the idiot list for last night.

right now he is with rachel. yeah!

if he does this again, im seriously breaking up with him. he isnt in high school anymore for fuck's sake. he knows what happens. he knows when he is drunk.

i dont know if teddy heard mike throwing up last night. i really hope not. she left at like 3am though last night, so i havent talked to her since. (she started work at 3:30am, thats why she left soo early.)

not sure if im being too nice by letting this go past him, but i think he really felt like shit and embarrassed.

he has a slight hangover right now. which i still think is good retribution. maybe im evil. maybe it will make him think twice before getting drunk with rachel.

gah! and im going to be gone this weekend and that makes me more nervous, because i wont be there for him to pick him up. hopefully he will be smart enough to not do that again. grr.

bad words all around.

now off to work, then class later tonight.

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