It's The Choices That We Choose

long long long

2005-03-31 - 11:40 a.m.

almost had a fight with the add entry thing again. geez, im sure mass amount of people dont add entries at 11:40 a.m. on a thursday. Sheesh.

So last night i went to mike's after work. I had to bring him his belt for judo that he forgot at my house. we hung out and watched six feet under. after that he went to judo. he was supposed to come back and we were to eat dinner (that i was making) and watch a movie.

i ended up making a really good dinner that he thought was amazing. thats nice. i love cooking meals for people who enjoy the food. im such a dork.

we didnt end up watching the movie b/c we ran out of time. although we did go to target b/c mike needed something for his 9am class today, and i bought uno cards. woo hoo. i LOVE that game. we played it last night.

i either lost another netflix in my horrifically messy room though or it hasnt come in the mail. thats not good. it was supposed to be here tuesday, and they are ALWAYS early here, NEVER late. we both wanted to watch it last night, so we were dissapointed. oh well. we watched some starsky and hutch instead, and i really love that movie i decided. its hilarious.

after going to bed at 230am or something mike had to wake up at 7am, and then 8am. he left sometime around then. geez... i was tired. i slept until about 11:20 when he called just to say he loved me. aww.

we had this good talk last night though. about how i was really annoyed about the rachel thing and how it makes me all weird when he goes to bars and especially when he dances with those asian girls and especially rosarito. he made me feel better about it though. saying he doesnt really do anything i should be jealous of when he is at bars. and he doesnt bump and grind or anything at the bars. and that i have nothing to worry about.

with the rachel thing i basically told him she was not nice to me. she wasnt mean, but she wasnt nice, by any means. he told me she probably noticed i was really mad about her presence there. but i doubt that, im pretty good at faking it, and i was faking it pretty hardcore there. and he was trying to say i bet even my roommates noticed, and i said i bet your roommates were weirded out that you had a girl staying at your house for a week that wasnt me. knowing that it is kinda sketchy or whatever.

so he said, maybe it wasnt that, but she prob didnt like to hang out with her friends girlfriend. and it makes sense to a point, because when my guy friends got girlfriends you always had to act differently with them. but thats because we would flirt (innocently or not) to some extent and thats what needed to be stopped. did they flirt? mike said no, but of course, what else would he say. he isnt stupid.

then he remembered when he was with his ex girlfriend in high school she hated rachel, and hated that mike hung out with her all the time. and that rachel knew that the girlfriend of the time hated her. and so she probably just automatically thinks i hate her, for the same reasons. which isnt too far off... hah. so maybe thats why she was being that way towards me. but really, she wasnt too friendly with anyone, but i was really trying to make a point to be nice to her, and got shit in return.

mike said he even noticed that i was trying to be nice to her. i dont know, whatever.

but he also said he understood about how i was upset about the situation, about her staying over and such. so thats good. im glad im not the only girl he has dated who doesnt like her, or their situation.

he has another friend, who is a girl, that he is super best friends with, i think more than any of his girl friends, or any of his friends in general. and he said i want you to meet her but now i dont know, because of all this stuff. i dont mind meeting her, i dont get any bad vibes about her, plus she has been with the same boyfriend for like 4 years + and they are basically connected at the hip i hear. i dont care, be friends with her, she has a boyfriend. all his other girl friends are all single. yuck.

anyway, overall the talk last night went really well, and he was very nice and open about it. and was very understanding. although he will still do things like go to bars with those girl, grr, whatever. i told him how they are discredited to me though, because they let him drive when he was obvious drunk. and he said well why, they didnt do anything to you. and i said, well if you died, they did something to me.

by the way, motorcycles are going by my window and they piss me off and annoy me very badly. they just seem like a burst of anger spurtng out super temper style for all to hear. i dont like anger, especially tempers, so stop it.

another good thing, mike is comiing with me to my mom's tonight actually. when he gets off work, around 11, we are going. it wont be too bad, because i have been going to bed late for awhile now, the earliest is 2:30am. so im sure i will be fine.

hopefully tomorrow works out. including the radio situation and the selling my dad's truck. or rather getting my dad's truck over to scot's work without trouble. my dad said he would take it, in the morning or something so he wouldnt get in trouble for driving it. hopefully he will find the stupid pink slip to my car. i wonder if that will be a problem at the car dealership with the whole radio thing. oh shit, gotta pay rent today. eek.

bye bye.

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family weekend sorta - 2005-04-02

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