It's The Choices That We Choose

dramarama

2005-04-07 - 11:43 p.m.

im really glad mike met my dad... now. just because when i vent, he now listens and understands. he let me vent to him for like 20 mins about it, and he NEVER would do that before. thank goodness.

my dad was a complete ass tonight, and is completely fucking mentally ill. no joke. i know, no one takes me serious about this, but its freaking true. grr. everyone seems to blow me off about it, but im not joking. maybe i just imagine they blow me off... but how can i expect anyone to understand if they have never met the guy. yeah.

anyway, i dont even want to talk about it, actually. i told a few people about it tonight and im done.

i just think he/i totally ruined our relationship. i YELLED at him tonight. but, completely justifiable. it was hard not to laugh at how ridiculous the arguement was on his part. how backwards he was about everything. he blamed EVERYTHING on me, when not one ounce of ANYTHING was my fault. fuck him, seriously.

but then i cant really say that, because i believe he is seriously mentally ill. but does that mean i have to deal with his shit? does that mean i have to take it? im done with taking it. i have been taking it for almost 21 years (although im sure the first few years of life dont count, but whatever) and now and im fucking over it.

i dont hate him really, im just overly frusterated with it.

so onto another topic. i watched this movie in my mental illness class tonight, and it was about juvenile delinquiency, and now i dont think i ever want a kid.

another story. weirdest experience in college classes.

so some kid was listening to his ipod instead of paying attention to class, and the teacher told him to take them off and that that was super insulting and she just started bawling... right in front of my class full of at LEAST 70 kids. she told him he hurt her feelings, etc but that she was also upset about something else. and then someone told her that her class is one of the best classes, which it is, i LOVE this teacher, and the whole class clapped and basically boo'ed the ass listening to the ipod. soo akward...

alright, if i go to bed now i will get 6 hours of sleep, well if i fall asleep in 4 mins... right...

ok, wish me luck this weekend and tomorrow. it wont be fun.

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