It's The Choices That We Choose

work with no school

2005-05-16 - 2:09 p.m.

one thought: when you work, and not go to school, does it ever get weird cuz it never really culminates into an ending, like finals or graduation? Maybe thats why everyone is always trying to get promoted in their jobs, because its kinda like graduating from a different grade.

i guess getting done with projects at work might count.

and im not sure why i wonder this, because i have been working since i was 16, and i should probably know. but ive always also had school. so maybe i dont.

either way, im really over school. i wish i majored in sociology, but too bad that wont take you any where. well how about this, i wish i wasnt taking california history, cuz other than that final, im interested in the subject matter.

i need to take tomorrow off, and am questioning whether i should. i think i should. i think i will ask.

its cold outside, and sprinkling. its very odd cuz this past weekend was beautiful and hot. not sure what happened, but oh well, i suppose. maybe its just the doom of finals pouring in.

i think once im done with california history i will be fine.

oh yeah, i got a B in my film class. im pretty excited about that. just cuz i made d effort.

i want to be under my covers right now studying in my pj's. but im at work, with nothing really to do, in heels, and a buttom up shirt and slightly cold. Is it ok to wear a hoodie and heels? probably not, but if it gets any colder, i dont care.

by the way, when i eat tacos, my jaw always locks up and it hurts to eat. i wonder why.

oh yeah, so i get off on thursday and then next thursday i start school again. barely a week off, if that counts at all as a week. i dont think it does cuz thursday im taking 2 finals, and the next thursday im at school. so what, is that 5 days? i dont know, im not countingr ight. and its basially going to school on the last day of the week. cuz its a monday-thursday class, and it starts on thursday. pretty lame, yeah....

so another thought, do you think i will eventually get used to not getting sleep. because i think i wont be getting sleep for awhile.

I need to start up judo at judo america soon.

the end for now. might start doing some work. have done a little bit so far.

oh yeah, no one ever notices when i have new clothes it seems. And you know how youre constantly thinking about it all day when you have a new outfit on that you like, and NO ONE notices. i guess it is true they are paying too much attention to themselves to notice others. i always notice people new haircuts or clothes, and i always make note of it, to them. as in compliment, etc. When i dont get compliments, sometimes i take it as they dont like it. because i wont say something about something that i dont like. thats not necessary. and when im talkng about new clothes its not just a new t-shirt, its that im coming into work with heels now and NO ONE seems to notice that im not wearing hoodies or pants with holes in them anymore.

and... i had a dream last night i got raped, or was about to get raped. i dont know, cant remember exactly, but it was by this guy who was in my journalism class. i think it was just he was trying to, and kept breaking into my apt and no one cared. so lame.

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