It's The Choices That We Choose

i want to go home

2005-06-01 - 4:07 p.m.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. cara
2. car-a
3. baby

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. tooinclined
2. daisyq22 (my first one)
3. choose2forget

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my butt
2. my eyes
3. my strength

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. legs
2. hands
3. feet

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. cherokee
2. irish
3. italian

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. death by disease
2. being alone, for over 12 hours
3. failure

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. breakfast
2. lunch
3. dinner

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. forever 21 jeans...
2. black cardigan
3. a white shirt with pink hearts

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. bright eyes/conor oberst
2. rx bandits
3. weezer

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. tegan and sarah- so jealous
2. bright eyes- sunrise, sunset
3. modest mouse- the radio one...

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. understanding
2. sweet things
3. laughter

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):
1. i am really busy at work
2. i am starting judo this evening, 3 days a week.
3. my body is REALLY sore from running yesterday

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. hair
2. height
3. humor

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. website venturing
2. music
3. watching basketball

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. leave work
2. sleep
3. leave work

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. web marketing
2. promotions
3. web research

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. San Francisco
2. Austrailia
3. Brazil

THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. kylie
2. kayla
3. rylie

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. get married
2. get a full night of rest
3. find a career i find satisfying in all the ways that are important

THREE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. tom cruise
2. topher grace
3. harrison ford

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so today i had a freakout time. I go to work early so i can stop by this cafe right next to it and get the best jalepeno and cheese bagel and an iced chocolate covered almond coffee.

i finish my bagel, and start drinking my coffee, after i add a ton of sugar, because they didnt seem to add much of that chocolate covered almond goodness.

a little later, a co-worker of mine comes in. she has diabetes and is always saying i probably have it because i pee all the time. So she brought in her diabetes test thing, that tests your blood sugar levels. i told her that i had just eaten, but she says that doesnt matter. so i take the test. ouch. it says my blood sugar level is at 130, which is at prediabetes level (anything above 100 and below 160 or somethng). awesome. so im freaking out, thinking i have diabetes, or potentially have it. and im weirded out cuz im a pretty healthy person. im in shape, for the most part, im a healthy weight, i eat well, i dont really care for sugar, except in coffee and on random chocolate splurges. so i was really confused. esp since it doesnt run in my family at all.

so im freaking out at work, researching all the information on it. im seriously having a panic attack style thing.

eventually an hour and half later i test again. because that is the time youre supposed to do it after you eat, approx. and my levels went down to 86, which is pretty much normal. so im like fuck you lady for freaking me out. im entirely fine. you suck. and after that i drank the rest of my coffee i avoided after taking the test. it was damn good coffee.

so basically, i dont have diabetes, or prediabetes, like i figured. lame lame lame. although now im still going to be paranoid about sugar. oh well.

work is BEYOND boring today. i want to go home. eat some food and then go to judo, which im starting today. im kinda scared and nervous about it. but oh well.

mike living at my place now isnt bad. its a little different, but we seem to be adjusting. he has been doing nice things for me though, like delivering a package for me and also offering to clean some of my clothes. thats nice.

alright, im going to waste another 30 mins+ doing NOTHING, because there is NOTHING to do. well there is something but i dont want to do it, its waaay inconcienant.

oh yeah, to burn more time. today in class, our teacher started to talk and give his whole spheel on communication theory. blah. and sound started to come out of the speakers. i guess before class some tech guy was showing him how to use the sound system, and forgot to shut it off. so some tv show was playing, a military documentary. but the problem was, the place you turn it off at was locked. so he let the class out early because he couldnt talk over the tv show, with us actually paying attention to him. that was sweet.

so i just left, ate some lunch and read a chapter from my communication book. funny part, i ate a salad that had some sweet vingerette stuff in it. i didnt throw the package away after i finished, because there wasnt a trash can in close enough distance for me to make an effort to throw it away yet. so a few mins later after setting it down a yellow jacket comes on over and starts sniffing it and attacking it. im scared as hell of bees, yellow jackets, wasps, anything that stings basically. so i waited for it to fly off for a few second, i threw it (literally) away and went and sat somewhere else. im THAT afraid. i seriously walked across campus to avoid the tiny yellow jacket.

so now im done. blah. i want to go HOME.

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