It's The Choices That We Choose

happy fathers day. hah.

2005-06-20 - 7:05 a.m.

my dad is the most self-involved, hypocrtical, fucked up, manipulative asshole i have ever met.

i dont want to talk to him ever again. i feel guilty, only because he is manipulative as fuck. so fuck that, im not feeling guilty anymore

fuck him. fuck him and his praisng he doesnt have pay child support anymore. fuck him for sending me pictures about the day his father lost his son. on the day my dad fucked up ryan's graduation. fuck him. fuck him and his fucking pedophile ways. fuck him and his disgusting pictures. fuck him and his trying to scare you into loving him. fuck him for "supporting" other people waaaaaay more than he ever fucking supported his kids. and fuck him for saying that he supported us. and fuck him for thinking all he is doing is to support us, when he hasnt given us a gosh damn thing. fuck him for blaming all his problems on someone else. fuck him for asking ME for support, when he gives me nothing, and trys to make me feel guilty about it. fuck him for beating my step mom, almost to death. fuck him cuz he would do the same to me if he read this.

He isnt any kind of father. father's dont try to force alcohol on their kids, ask them to pose nude for photographs (my sister), never give them love, only monetary stuff, occasionaly, making us feel guilty for everything he has barely even done, if at all. just fuck him, he isnt my dad.

im really pissed at him right now. and as i said before, i dont want to talk to him again. im really fucking over it, all of it.

if he can cut ryan off, i am cutting him off. without an explanation either, cuz like he said, if you dont understand why im pissed now, you will never understand. except you fucker, you actually fucked up in waaay too many areas.

and dont go saying you work so much harder than me. if you did, you would be able to pay for things like i do.

how the fuck did i turn out responsible and normal, when a dad like you was around. oh wait, you hardly ever were. you were only around when janet suggested us hanging out. you did it for her, not you. you didnt raise me, i never had a father while growing up. thats why im not all fucked up like you.

im fucking over it. dont talk to me again.

woo hoo - 2005-06-28

crappy weekend - 2005-06-26

pms fashionably late - 2005-06-24

peace out. hah. - 2005-06-24

still miss me. - 2005-06-24

last - next

host