It's The Choices That We Choose

thank the lord

2005-06-22 - 7:13 p.m.

yesterday:

went to work as per usual. and class. and my second job. then i came home to meet andrea.

we decided to go on a run. we ran from my place in ocean beach to mission beach. we were 1/2 a mile away from the part with the roller coaster. it was narly. we ran halfway back and i just couldnt take it anymore so we walked the rest of the way. it took an hour and 45 mins. wow.

after that we went to ponce's and we ordered a margarita. mmm. we actually shared one and they let us get it in two glasses. it was really nice. we wanted to share so i would be able to drive home. that might be a good idea ey?

after that we went to 7-11 and got hawaiian punch slurpees. mmm. once we got home we put bicardi in them. mmm. it was soooo good!! but we didnt put much alcohol in them because i def had to get up at 630am the next day. we watched SAVED! while drinking. it was funny.

but it was bad though cuz i was super ultra paranoid about not starting girl time yet. for no reason really, because i hadnt had sex since the 4th, and that wasnt anywhere near the get pregnant time. whatever. it was just lame. and in saved the girl gets pregnant, etc. the reason i started to get paranoid though was because normally i get all these pms symptoms, like sore boobs until the day im going to start, and i get moody of course, i break out, and i get cramps really bad. but none of that was happening.

i had just started a new birth control so i didnt know what would happen. for the past four years+ i had always gotten my girl time on tuesday morning/night on the week of the inactive pills. and tuesday night rolled around and i still hadnt gotten it. wednesday morning rolled around and i still hadnt gotten it. i was freaked.

so after going to bed after the movie i crashed out, cuz i was a little tipsy. then at exactly 3am i woke up and started freaking out about how i hadnt started yet. and started with all these anxiety attacks, including cold sweats and hot sweats. it was miserable. i couldnt fall asleep until like 630am, when i had to get up at 7. it was absolutely terrible. and im not sure why i freaked out so bad, maybe that was actually one side effect to this medicine. it gives you extreme paranoid disorder. i was seriously thinking i need xnanax please. heh.

so i got up, and was dead, because i had basically only 3 hours of sleep. i went to work and was surprisinly very talkative, but had no idea what was going on. i was going through the motions, but nothing was really making sense to me.

then i went home to attempt to take a nap. and yes, this was instead of going to class. but andrea was there still, and so we just ended up talking. i finally ate though. i didnt eat in the morning cuz i was so upset. and when im upset i dont eat. she made me eat, which was good.

so after that i left for my second job of the day. i got there and was dead. i ended up starting while at work. thank the lord!! i decided that the trick to provoking your period to come was to wear cute underwear and hang around girls who were about to start too. my co-worker at my first job was about to, so i guess that rubbed off on me.

i also decided i wouldnt go to judo, because on 3 hours of sleep i would prob get sick or something.

instead after my 3 hours of working the second job where i was basically hallucinating it seemed, i went to target and then went to dinner at in-n-out with andrea and the guy she is dating. it was nice.

now i am at home. im thinking of reading for a little while and crashing out. i need sleep after last night. badly. i am not sure how i survived today.

on friday i HAVE to go to judo though. i HAVE to. no one try to talk me out of it. thanks.

i feel bad for missing today. oh well.

mike comes back soon, which seems weird to say. he gets back to houston on friday, which is only 1.5 days away. weird...hopefully he will call me when he gets in sometime.

he will be here monday. i am pretty excited about it. woo hoo. i have six feet under ready to watch, will buy some lasagna for him and we will watch season 5 of sopranos. woo hoo. i took monday off, at least from kpbs, to pick him up.

on tuesday his friend nick will be here. and that will be fun. hopefully he will help mike move instead of making me. i had to help mike move last year, including nicks stuff, instead of nick helping. so its his turn now, bitch. haha.

alright, well im going now. probably to read about sorority girls, in my book. the end.

woo hoo - 2005-06-28

crappy weekend - 2005-06-26

pms fashionably late - 2005-06-24

peace out. hah. - 2005-06-24

still miss me. - 2005-06-24

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