It's The Choices That We Choose

the weekend thus far

2005-07-03 - 11:52 p.m.

its been a good weekend so far.

friday i dont remember what happened. let me think. oh yeah, i think mike worked for a little bit and i hung out with nick at a coffee shop.

after mike got off work we hung out at my place for awhile. then we went to the whistle stop and visited molly. we only went inside for a little bit. i didnt order a drink, although i wanted to. i didnt know what to order. there is no menu and i dont know drinks. whatever.

after the whistle stop we went to the rocky horror picture show thing up in encinitas. mike knew someone there. it was nuts. i was really scared of going. honestly, i didnt like it. i drank a lot of liquor while i was in there to ease the tensions. i cant say im a fan. shoot me, whatever, for saying that, but it was just a bunch of really... ok im not going to talk about it. i will get people getting really pissed if i say it. so i will stop.

anyway, on saturday... i got breakfast with mike and nick. i was really excited about that because i hadnt eaten breakfast like that in awhile, especially not with mike. and nick is really fun to hang out with, so that was cool.

after that i went and got my hair done. it took fucking forever. im not kidding. halfway through i was like ok can you just do a shitty job now so i can leave? im fucking over this. i went in at 2 and didnt get out until after 6. it was torture. and i had to spend a fuckload of money and i dont really like it. another reason that helps me not like it is that i have a monster of a zit on my face and it just makes everything on me look terrible. im not even exaggerating on this zit. its ridiculous. go away!!!

so after that i went with mike and nick to the grocery store. then i cooked them a nice dinner. mmm it was delcious. then we watched sopranos. and then i dont remember what else we did. maybe talk? maybe play scene it? i have no idea.

then today. we went to mike's friends scot's house. he is a baker, and a damn good one. he made us breakfast, and we played poker. it was a bunch of people from mike's work. they are a cool bunch of people. i had fun. we stayed there until about 6, and then went to target to get a kickball for tomorrow's game. by the way, in poker, in my 2nd game, i almost won. i lost because i was fucking over it at that point. we both knew how to read each other, and im not a bluffer. i kept getting really great hands, but he knew they were great so he would just fold. it sucked. whatever.

so anyway, the kickball experience. well i had mike drive to target in my car cuz i was super amped about the whole almost winning thing. it got my anxiety levels way up, so i thought it would be better if he drove. and when he did, him and nick just went on this whole thing of teasing me and making fun of me. not really in a mean way but it flustered me. and yes, i said flustered. so anyway when we got to target i grabbed my keys away from mike and said these arent yours, im driving home.

so we shop in target and come back and im like mike did you steal my keys? he says no. cuz guess what, they arent in my purse. awesome. are they in the car? yeah. are all the doors locked. yeah. fuck.

luckily we all have AAA. i calledon my account, and got ahold of them after like 20 mins. we decided to walk to santana's. the tow truck showed up quicker than we expected which was nice. he had us in the car in less than 2 mins once he got there. so funny. i wish i had a lock picking kit. they sell it at my work. but who carries it when they actually need it and arents jacking a car? i dont jack cars so i wouldnt ever be carrying it when it would be convienant, so nevermind on that whole shpeel.

after we went back to my place. watched american psycho. it was pretty good. i think i might like the book better. then the boys wanted to go back to scots. i have a headache and am feeling very ugly right now, so i opted out. which is good cuz my stomach is not liking my santana's right now.

by the way, my stomach has been all super fucked up for at least a week. since mike has been back. i think its cuz the birth control im taking. its on a higher dosage and i remember i felt like puking last month a little bit too.

it could also be that i have also been averaging at least 2 drinks a day/night in the past 7 days. maybe?? i dont think it could mean im pregnant. that would be weird. being sick to your stomach the day after? not high chances of that. esp since it was the first day after my period when we did have sex. so it wouldnt be impanted until a few days from now, and yeah, a little early. and too many details, whatever.

tomorrow the goal is to go to the beach and to play kickball with a bunch of cool kids. molly is a lame ass and isnt coming. hahaha. jk.

i think it will be a lot of landmark people and oddly enough dylan called me today. weird. very weird. he wanted to hang out tomorrow. we will see how this all works out. i dont think mike likes him. he says he doesnt even know him so he cant not like him. but everytime i mention him he gets quiet, like i do when he mentions girls he hangs out with that i dont like.

i dont know, whatever. im going to go to sleep now. i hope mike doesnt drive back too drunk. i hope he stays alive. i hope he is back before 4am. although i wont be too surprised if he isnt. he better call me if he is out later. geez. he wont. but it would be nice.

ok im going to bed. this headache is obnoxious and my tummy is not being cooperative.

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