It's The Choices That We Choose

trying not to die

2005-07-22 - 2:38 p.m.

last night i had a headache. when i went to sleep i had a headache.

i woke up this morning with a headache. i went to work with a headache. i took exceddrin for the headache. 30 mins later my stomach was KILLING me. I lasted it out at work for 2 more hours than HAD to go home. i went home and worked from home. I was kind of successful.

I was feeling a lot better, and went to my second job.

i didnt eat lunch cuz im afraid of food right now, since the stomach cant seem to keep much down right now.

and now im at work and my stomach is starting to hurt again. it needs to stop. now.

i need to finish work up here and then go get boxes at costco and then pack all night.

i just hope i can last.

being at home would be fine. especailly if adina and her boyfriend and boyfriends friend werent there. but they will prob be there. but maybe not.

she is all trying to be clean or whatever but i have to pack, so things are going to be out in the living room. so deal with it. you wont have to deal with my shit for a month after this, so whats another week?

i feel all guilty and retarded for it, or she is making me feel guilty, or as if i should feel guilty for it, but whatever, fuck it. i have to move. i want to move. i wouldnt be so urgent about it, except the obvious facts.

so i vote on going home right now. thatd be awesome. i would get a lot more done. im def leaving here early though. i really dont care what they think or say.

ive worked 43 hours this week (not including the 2 more i will be working today), so yeah, im over work. you would be too.

i have hw i need to get done also.

i want a night alone. but thats not going to happen.

i think this is a stress thing, because i have a headache when im off exceddrin (and its the tension kind) and my stomach is upset. those two ailments are def related to stress.

also, i picked up my paycheck today and not as much as i was hoping but 200 more than usual. so thats nice.

off to go try not to die now.

its been awhile - 2005-08-03

drone of a friday - 2005-07-29

i need sleep - 2005-07-26

insane right now - 2005-07-26

more updates later - 2005-07-25

last - next

host