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insane right now

2005-07-26 - 3:55 p.m.

the past 2 days i have had trouble breathing. i attribute it to stress and/or anxiety.

i have to pack, plus i have to write papers, plus i have to move this weekend, and maybe go to a show, and go to a party where im supposed to get smashed or something on friday.

moving sucks, cuz its extreme stress. i have no money. i want to quit kpbs. but if i do, i prob wont be able to make enough money to pay for everything.

mike is moving soon and it scares me. im going to houston soon and need to get my hair done.

teddy is coming into town and i wont have time to entertain. im moving saturday, maybe going to parking lot scene, and i need to write a paper. ahh!!!

also, work situation, at web job, is getting insane. they are saying do this, do that, and its due in 2 days. and its really hard to get everything done. i dont have time to do everything in the time they are telling me to get it done. and if i dont i could waste a lot of money. and i dont want to do that. ahhh. what to do, what to do.

and i have class tonight, and i dont want to go, because i could do a lot better work from home than in class. but i skipped out yesterday after a half hour so i could buy the reader for the class (finally) and write a paper.

and im continuously getting only 6 hours of sleep. im finally getting used to it, but im not sure.

i still cant breathe. litterally, not metaphorically or symbolically or whatever bullshit.

please let me breathe. i think thats a line in a song.

maybe i should cut back on the rockstar, cuz im going insane right now.

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update of a kind - 2005-08-09

its been awhile - 2005-08-03

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i need sleep - 2005-07-26

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